Continued from Kathleen McIntire: October 2011 Newsletter:
Making Mistakes: Recently I have had someone in my life who started to make mistakes. The more she feared making a mistake the more mistakes started to appear. The more irritation and negative energy I felt towards the mistakes the more energy I was feeding to them. They did what all things do with tons of attention placed on them – they grew and multiplied. I started to expect them to happen. Instead of my focus being on the thousands of things that were incredible and working, the mistakes became my focus.
I set an intention to release any negative limiting patterns in my life. I saw some things I had been blind to seeing because they were part of the fabric of “me” and the eyes I look out from.
Seeing My Limiting Belief: In a time of silence and deep introspection I saw how deeply I loved the person making the mistakes. What had come up between us was about me. I have not been able to make mistakes in my life. When I was a six month old baby and I didn’t want to eat my food my dad hit me. When I was a toddler and spilled my milk at dinner I got a beating. In sixth grade I struggled doing fractions in math, when my dad couldn’t get me to understand he beat me. Plus the multitude of times over the years a mistake meant being hurt and punished. From early on I trained myself never to make mistakes, to be careful and hyper-vigilant. Life was walking on egg shells, waiting for explosions to come. Trying to make sure they didn’t. I learned not to make little mistakes but now I was able to see how I made the biggest mistake of all…. I was unable to love that part of someone dear in my life making mistakes. Really it was me I couldn’t love. I have never been able to love that part of myself.
I gave gratitude to the Divine for conspiring to bring this person into my life for many reasons. The most recent to initiate a healing in me so I could embrace making mistakes and see how this has limited me my whole life. We need to be able to make mistakes to be able to grow and evolve. It has been a place that has stolen parts of my love and locked it in a closet.
I see how we as humans are all walking mistakes not meaning to be but because of our traps and limitations we are. Now to BIRTH love in the world we need to open those doors where our hearts have been closed and let all that love out!!
Asking Forgiveness: I sent an email to my dear friend who had made the mistakes “I see what I have done to you is one of those unpardonable things. I didn’t see you and I was not able to truly love you in those moments of the mistakes because I couldn’t love that in myself. You made the little mistakes and I made the big one. I hope you have it in your heart to forgive me because I am so truly and deeply sorry. I love you and admire you with all my heart. And I choose to love myself even as I make this huge mistake and this is a new beginning for me. Thank you for your gifts of seeing and allowing me to evolve to more love and to opening my heart to being able to receive that love.“
I was able to see where I was unconscious in an area of my life. I was not able to love because of something inside of me. It gave me the opportunity to release old limiting patterns that were holding me back. I gave these limiting patterns to Mother Earth asking her to transmute them. It all opened me to more love.
Look Into Your Own Life: I invite you to look into your life and see where you are holding love back. A good place to start is with a wound you carry. Another key is to find the places where you feel irritation to another person. There is something that is still working you. Where have you held back love because of the hurt you felt?
Look and see yourself as a child and see where this may have come from. Also, imagine that person in their youth and look to see what might have happened to them that caused them to hold the behavior that you see causing pain you have felt. Realize that someone did something to that person to cause this behavior and this keeps going back in time. As Bob Hoffman, founder of The Hoffman Process said “we are all guilty but no one is to blame”. Imagine unleashing all this love we have suppressed and locked away in closets! The power is here now by allowing it out to truly turn a paradigm based on fear into one of love. It is birthing time here on our planet.
Global Transformation Happening Now! Some people, such as Mayan scholar Carl Calleman, believe the end of the Mayan Calendar is coming on October 28, 2011 where he sees a Conscious Convergence taking place at that time. For his latest article, The “End” of the Mayan calendar, Solar Flares and Earth Changes visit: http://www.calleman.com. Others see November 11, 2011 or 11/11/11 as a portal to this new paradigm. Check out YouTube – there are lots of interesting perspectives! The Maya have the end date for their 26,000 year cycle as December 21, 2012 and thus the birth of a new cycle taking place at that time. Perhaps all of these dates are part of our evolution of consciousness and the birthing of LOVE and a whole new paradigm on our planet.
Using Guidance From Guiding Signs 101 Cards… As we move into this new paradigm I realize we are navigating on new roads that we have never traversed on before. The old ways are no longer working. It is now a time for us to tune inside and listen to our wisdom and inner guidance. I had the vision to create a set of 44 Road Sign cards as a tool to help people access this wisdom and to help them in making decisions.
In this recent experience of making mistakes The Guiding Signs 101 Cards reflected how I was going the “Wrong Way” and how I needed to create some “Rest Areas” and places to love and nurture myself. It also showed me the importance of the “Scenic Overlooks” and where I needed to be in a place of appreciation!
Time to stop the rat race. Here lies a beautiful place. Feel the joy of being alive Before it’s time to continue the drive!
Scenic Overlook: Deeper Meaning* The scenic overlook is a beautiful place. Take time to pause and look at the beautiful scenic overlooks on the journey of your life. See the beauty that appears every step of the way and nourishes your heart and soul. Remember to appreciate it and drink it in. What you appreciate appreciates.
We create beauty by giving attention to something or someone. When we truly see another person and give that person attention they grow in beauty. *An except from Scenic Overlook.
It is my hope that through sharing my experience you will be able to see places inside yourself where you have held back love and let yourself see it and bring it to the surface to be released. Together may we harness the power of love!